Having a baby really causes you to sit back and slow down. Before Owen was born, I feel like I was just racing around trying to get every last detail in order. I wanted to do as many fun things with Ande as possible for his last few days as an “only child.” I was straightening the house and doing the dishes after every meal. I didn’t want to leave for the hospital with dirty dishes in the sink. And I took way more showers than usual, actually blow drying my hair, just so I wouldn’t look too terrible in the hospital pictures (kinda funny how the day he was born was the only day in a week that I didn’t end up doing my hair). It wasn’t until yesterday that I realized how much I had been racing around. All of that fast motion probably kept me from noticing the last few moments alone with Ande that really mattered.
Now we are taking things slow, trying to figure out our “new normal life,” and I’ve started to notice a lot of little things that really make me happy.
I love watching a yawning baby, and the smiley face Owen makes (even though I know he isn’t “actually” smiling).
I love that we have a bunch of old pictures as the screen saver on our computer and I’ve been mesmerized by them as I sit on the bed feeding Owen several times each day. They bring back so many sweet memories of our wedding, and when Ande was a little baby. I can’t believe how fast he is growing up.
Although, if you check back with me tomorrow, when Curtis goes back to work and I’m actually on my own with two kids, I might not be feeling so lovey. I’m quite scared actually. I’ll let you know how it goes.